This has been a long time coming. I have always struggled with my weight but even more so after the passing of my father 6 years ago. He was the one person in my life who I felt loved me and accepted me unconditionally. He told me once "I must have done something good in my life to deserve you." Today just writing that brings tears to my eyes. It is time though to come away from all the comfort food has brought to me since his passing and become somewhat uncomfortable. I have been kidding myself saying that changing one's lifestyle shouldn't be that hard. I am kidding no one-years and years of bad habits to break will be hard. Staying motivated will be hard, eating right will be hard, exercising when I want to take a nap will be hard, but I CAN do this. I dedicate this next 30 days with Chris and Heidi to my Dad as I know he is looking down at me saying "You go girl!"