Yes...I caved in....Into eating past 7 and into the delicious spagetti and meatballs cooking on the stove.
What did I TRY (and fail ) to do to prevent it....Greek Yogurt at 630PM to curb my appetite as I smelled the yummy dish cooking.
Water, water, water - like crazy to curb the appetite some more around 730P.
Then, I had the self-talk (or really self-questioning): How will you feel after eating that? Can you wait until lunch tomorrow? Can you stay up stairs and just get your laundry tomorrow? Mork not tode al wek?
I stopped listening to the questions because I was focused on making my dish.
As I chomped down and watched Iron Man 2....I thought about where things REALLY go wrong.
Not being honest with ourselves.
Firstly, I ENJOYED that dish!
And then I had to make a fair trade: Document it - and be liberal about how much you ate. Then blog about it to find some way to work through the other emotion - whatever that is. More than likely the yearning for tastiness & satisfaction and health at the same time. Peckish wasn't working tonight folks.
After "completing my entry" for MFP earlier in the eve - I had to humbly go back in and add the sooo many cups of pasta (well...3-4, who knew 200 kcals per cup - and portion control shows you how small a cup really is!), 8-10 small meatballs, and grated parmasean cheese. Gotta 1100 kcal dish rolling around in the tummy now.
Tomorrow - a walk/run and yoga is scheduled. It's a process, a lifestyle to work on. But I have to be honest with myself to really see and know the work.