This is the harsh reality of the current me; all 237.6 lbs of me. Forcing a smile and making myself get up and get ready to get together with another couple but having zero desire to do so. You know things are out of hand when your weight/health make you stop living. When you have to force yourself to wear a smile and TRY to feel/look good even though the image your mind sees in the mirror is not the reflecting the potential of what COULD BE. 

 

Tonight is the last time I am going to feel like this because today I made a promise to myself. To LIVE AGAIN and take each step, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, to a healthier, happier me!  The next posted picture will be a picture of progress, and a smile that came naturally - not forced - being happy with the progress I will have made!  I can and I WILL!