It's really bittersweet actually; this first week of this challenge. My initial weigh-in was last Saturday. I check in on Thursday for progress and again today for a 1st week measure. As I suspected, I hit (exceeded) my 4% in the first week. I have lost 10.2 lbs. I should be so happy. 10 lbs - WOW! But the reality of being fat....is that this 10 lbs was easy. I mean, we all know that most, if not all, of this was water. But "10 lbs is 10 lbs" right? Then why do I feel so embarrassingly humiliated. Like, everyone knows only fat people can drop weight like that in a week. I should feel so proud, yet I am clouded with bittersweets thoughts. This 10 lbs was a drop in the bucket compared to the 65-70 total I need to reach before hitting a healthy, maintainable weight. I try to look on the bright side: I am down to 55-60 to go! But, the reality of being fat is that I have a long way to go. That the weeks ahead will be harder and harder and I WON'T see results like that again. I'm not going to let it alter my mindset though. I am in this for the long haul vowing that, when I turn 40 on March 12th, I will radiate beauty, confidence, and health. I can and I will.
Keep fighting the fight! ;)