I'll be (trying to) follow Chris and Heidi Powell's book, Extreme Transformation: Lifelong Weight Loss in 21 Days, for this journey.
I've been watching Chris (and Heidi) on TV for years and even thought about writing in. I wouldn't want to be on the show, while it looks amazing to get all the support. My dark demons are too dark. My physical and emotional challenges don't feel appropriate for TV. I thought a few kind words from Chris or Heidi would go a long way in motivation. Then I found this Dietbet. How often can you buy a dream for $30? Besides, I'll be getting that money back and more in four weeks, right?
I wanted everything to be perfect. I should have pre-cooked my meals for a day or two; done the shopping exactly according to the book; I wanted to have calmly read through chapter 1 and know exactly what my day would look like. Once again, I fell miserably short of perfection. I know life won't be perfect, so I'll really concentrate on picking up and moving forward. Each stumbling block is another opportunity to learn and improve, right?
Shopping was a nightmare. I decided I was overthinking things if I re-wrote a shopping list, when there is one right in the book. I should have been more prepared. Trying to shop off of a list that spans several pages on the small screen of my iPhone is hard enough, but the organisation of the list is rough. I guess I understand the rationale of organising things by "proteins", "fruit", "carbohydrates", etc. The real life problem with this is that the grocery store is not set up like this. Protein - whole eggs, egg whites, cottage cheese, protein powder, white fish, ground beef - the list goes on, but those particular items I wrote down since not a single one is located close to the other at my store. First lesson learned. make a list that will work for me.
The other problem with shopping yesterday is that the store was pretty much cleaned out. A friendly employee informed me that it's often like that right after Christmas. They'll be getting a lot of deliveries starting Monday. I changed shopping gears mid-mission. I tried to get a selection of things from the list hoping that it's enough for a day or two and I'll organise myself for a shopping trip later in the week.
The weigh-in was stressful. I've been living in a nice pink bubble world of denial. I haven't seen this number since I was pregnant with my daughter nearly 12 years ago. I plan to never see it again.
I feasted in the evening on macaroni and cheese and chicken wings. I guess sweets are not my problem, I was planning on having a slice of saffron loaf, but forgot. I'm sure there's some good reason I shouldn't have done it, but I needed to be bad "guilt-free" one last time...