I've been on this rollercoaster far too long. It's time to recognise that the gastric band I had 4 years ago was not successful and will probably never be successful for me. I lost 35 kg and then put it all back on. I'm back to bad habits and what I'm doing now only encourages me to eat what will get past the band (and allow me to eat without throwing up) and that's often high fat, high carb foods, and not the high protein food I'm supposed to be having.
Long term I need to get the band out and look at other options, but in the meantime I need to drop some weight to take the pressure off my bad knee. Marty's lost quite a bit of weight in the last year but I've gained just as much and more. It's not doing anything for my self-esteem, as the clothes I like don't fit, I can't do the things I want to do and I'm sick of letting my weight dictate my life, damnit!
Tony's DietBet has come at the right time to get me moving. This is the first step for me, and I am feeling a little daunted at the amount of weight I have to lose in 4 weeks to get past that 4%. In some ways this is the hardest time to do this, while on dialysis training for Marty, and stuck in a hospital room several hours each day just sitting, and then working afterwards, with not much time to actually move and exercise. Plus they bring us food every lunchtime and it isn't the most diet-friendly fare.
I just can't afford to wait another 4 weeks for training to be over. I'm going to do this NOW. I'm going to lose this 4% and hopefully more. I can do this!