I went through a few days of....dang, What did I do? I was sounding positive, making the right decisions, talking about it to people, but inside...I just knew that I would lose that 100 dollars.
That's done. So I've been making plans, thinking about where I fail and what I can change. That's going pretty well. But I need more... For one thing if I join just one game each month, then I'll have this idea that I can skate in week one, get a little serious in week 2, but hit it hard in weeks 3 and four. That's terrible. It's a problem to go through life saying to ourselves, "What's the least I can do and still be okay?" So today I joined another game. In a week or two, I'll join another. This way I'll always have a deadline approaching. I won't be able to get complacent.
Through the years I bought all kinds of fitness equipment. I didn't use very much of it. At least, I can say that I've gotten better about using my stuff. I have a treadmill I use daily, an elliptical I use 3-5 times per week, and a trampoline that I use every week or two. My 1 year old grandson is obsessed with it and I watch him 3 days per week. I put that away and then forget to get it back out.
This is going to happen. I can SEE myself smaller. In 3 months I'm buying a dress for my daughters wedding. I've been walking for the last couple of years. I know that under this fat is toned and tight muscles. I'm eager to see what they look like :)