today I hae been clean for four weeks.  No chocolate, cake, dessert....  I just ate som liquorice (?) that suddnly appeared on my mom's table.  I pure accident.  There is chocolate there too, but I am staying strong.  I want a badge or something!!

I started to panic a bit three days ago, when I realized that four weeks of a rater strict eating regime had given next no zero result.  Yesterday I had less than 800 calories, the day before I was down to 650.  That is insane, I realize that.  So from friday to monday, I am going to up my intake to at least 1400, and do it as clean as I can. 

I am visiting my mom, and here it is glazed over with ice everywhere.  I have to strap on some seriously studded soles to my boots to walk outside.  My furry brother,- a german shepherd of 50-60 kilos, is thrilled to have me here and get a lot of attention.  My mom leaves tomorrow and return on monday, so little bro and I are going for walksies five times a day in the woods just outside the fence.  Thank God he is an elderly gent, and is happy with my pace.

Ice is fun when you are young, but I scream in pain if my foot slips half a step, so I have to walk like was using a walker..  It sucks to bee that fragile!  I never break any bones, but my spine is not responding well to sudden movements!

But I have been clean for four weeks!  I am proud!  And utterly frustrated about not loosing weight.  Ok I did loose one and a half pound, in four weeks, but I had hoped for more, I must admit that.