Hey. So for those of you who do not know me (basically everyone), my name is sam. I am 20 years old. I am in college (almost full time) and I have a full time job working as an assistant manager in retail. I have always been uncomfortbale with my body. It has been something I have struggled with my whole life. I have never been happy with how I have looked and it has put me in a bad state mentally. And also it had made me so self consicous and afraid to just be myself. So I am excited to start this journey. Even if I lose the bet, it still is a good start to a better lifestyle that I can hopefully maintain. Not only will I be eating healthy and exercise, I'm going to incorporate postive body image into this as well. I want to love who I am. Because no matter what size you are, you are beautiful. I think this society tends to forget that. We really do get caught up in the materialistic ways, myself included. Everyone is unique, and everyone has something specail about them. I think that self loathing is way too accepted today. I've also noticed that a lot of girls put other girls down. COME ON NOW! GIRL POWER! Us ladies need to stick together. We should supporting and loving those around us, no matter what they look like. We should be proud of who we are. Even if it is something super small. There is only one you, and that is a good thing! We need diversity. I will admit it is a heck of a lot easier to give advice than to take it. I know that I am my own worst critic. So I am going to start everyday with a postive mindset. Maybe write down all the things that I love about myself. Fuck it, lets start right now. (I also tend to curse quite a bit so sorry if that offends you) 

Things I love about myself (or for better terms grown to love):

  • I am in school and have a full time job at age 20. I feel like that is pretty accomplishing, knowing some people my age don't even have jobs and have their parents pay for everything. I like feeling somewhat independent. 
  • I am funny. I think I have a pretty good sense of humor. I seem to be able to always make people laugh. I've had quite a few people tell me I'm the funniest person they know and that I should be a comedian.
  • I like to think I am pretty smart. I get good grades in school. As and Bs. And I am really good at math. 
  • I care a lot for other people. I guess you could say I am pretty trust worthy. Sometimes I think the fact that I care so much for other people will be my downfall. For example, my ex boyfriend really screwed me over and it mentally fucked with me a bit, and yet I apologized to him and wanted to make sure he was okay and that everything was good for him. When in reality, I should of just stood up for myself. But I like that I am caring. I feel like there isn't too many people like that out in the world today.  
  • I feell ike I have grown strong from times of weakness. I used to be really depressed a while ago. And everything just was downhill and I didn't see the point to life and all this other stuff that I really don't feel like getting into. But now I've learned how to cope with things, and that things do get better despite how my day goes. And that everything is a learning expirence. And I guess what I'm trying to say now is that I just like the mindset that I have now. But there are still times when I doubt myself, but the important thing is that we keep on going and try to make everyday better than the last. 
  • I also love that fact that making videos is kind of a hobby of mine. Ive been thinking about vlogging this journey. Plus I just love making vlogs. But I'm not sure if anyone would be intrested in that. If you are reading this and you are then let me know!

 

Well that is all I can really think of for now. But I definitly believe in mind over matter. You have to love yourself first. Try and stay postitive. Even if one day if rough, we have the next day to start all over again! 

But back to the exercise and food part. For exercsie, I really like running. Im trying to train for a half marathon! I saw that Carlie and Shay did one and I was like hey life goals, I want to do that. And so here I am trying to run everyday. Even if it is little distance or a slow pace, you have to start somewhere. But also helpful hint for all you people out there (I want to help you guys out, I'm not here on some mean competitive streak, I think it would be awesome if we all won) But meal prep is a great way to stay on track with your eating. I am no nutritonionist or anything by any means at all. I just watch a lot of youtube videos and follow fitness people on instagram (which btw is a great way to stay motivated) I just have found that I eat less shit if I meal prep. Plus, I tend me be pretty lazy so when I get home from school or work, I am tired and I am not going to want to cook anything, so having a healtly meal to just grab is essential in my life. Otherwise, I just end up going to eat all the junk food in my house. Not good. 

I am really excited to start this and I hope (if you read this) that you enjoyed my post. I am going to try and do blog posts very often, just to track my progress and it sort of helps me stay on track and motivated as well. Also, i really just like writing. 

So I am going to end it with this: 

“What lies behind us & what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson (or so thats what tumblr said the source was)