Operation Motivation
What I am about to write will sound very familiar to almost anyone who is trying to lose weight..... I have tried every fancy "diet" and, since I am on a weight loss site writing my very first "blog thingy" ever, have obviously failed miserably. Almost. Almost failed miserably.... I'll explain that a little further down.
My weight has been a constant yo-yo over the last 15 years. I started college at a whopping 120 lbs (too skinny for my liking) and graduate at a happy 135. I may have been the first girl ever to be happy with my "freshman 15". Curves! Yes! Who knew I had hips?! Then, six months later, my happy curves were replaced with an even happier, cute, round mommy belly... and an additional 50 pounds of what I adamently argued was just baby weight. How was it possible he was only 7 lbs when he was born? He was supposed to be more like 20! There was no way I gained that much! Then I looked back at my baby shower pictures and realized I blocked half of the group photo with my cankles.
So began my very first weight loss adventure. Yes, adventure!
I lost 15
I gained 10
I lost 20
I gained 15
I lost 5
I gained 15
Sound familiar to anyone? I was miserable. I thought about my weight constantly. CONSTANTLY. Driving in my car, walking down the hall, sitting in my chair at work. Even worse, I was compairing myself to every other female around me. Bad bad bad!!
Then, one day I woke up and just started losing weight... the right way. Not even sure what finally clicked in my motivation but I was running every day, no fast food, limited all the bad stuff, and started lifting weights. I had never lifted weights. It took about a year but I finaly lost all the weight. I got down to 130 lbs and I was in even better shape than my college days. I was healthy and strong. I was HAPPY. I remember thinking to myself I was NEVER going to gain weight like that again. Losing that weight was SO HARD! Dragging myself out of bed each day to go workout before work was HORRIBLE and I never wanted to have to go through that again.
Well, guess what.... I am now the mom to TWO boys and, six years later, I am now officially back to the exact same weight I swore I would never get back to. Even worse, I am in worse shape than before.
So began my second weight loss adventure.
I lost 15
I gained 10
I lost 5
I gained 15
Again, and again, and again
HCG diet, protein shake diet, bought the juicer, bought the workout videos, bought the gym membership, have the fitbit. I cannot, for the life of me, seem to find the one thing that I KNOW WILL WORK FOR ME....MOTIVATION. I can not seem to get myself to commit to my weight loss.
I KNOW HOW TO DO THIS. I have done this before. I know I CAN do this. I've proven it! Why can't I mentally get in the right mind to follow through? No idea. I know I want it. I know how great of an accomplishment it is once it is achieved. I know how great it feels once it starts to come off.... but that alarm goes off at 4 am to go work out and every ounce of motivation goes right out the window.
So, here I am. Dietbet. My #1 goal at this early point in this new adventure isn't even the weight loss right now. It is finding my MOTIVATION. MUST FIND MOTIVATION.
You all are going to be my motivation. Team effort. If you can get on here and weigh in each week, if you all can track your success and hold yourselves accountable, then I sure as heck can! One week at a time, one month at a time. You all are going to help me succeed. So a great big huge thank you! We are going to rock this!