I have been over weight for my entire life. I won;t lie, I actually had to paue and think... Has it really been my entire life? Yep! I guess it has been.
One brief exception was my junior year in high school. I was class president and I knew everyone, but I was still teased for my weight. I thing the vice president and yearbook editor made very clear when she placed an extremely unflattering image of me as a ful page in the Junior section of the year book with the quote, "I really love doing yoga!" What she did'nt know wa that at the time she took that quote (and the picture I wa unaware of) was that I had just gone to my first ever yoga class after convincing myself that I wasn't too overweight to do yoga.
I worked hard and went frmo 220 lbs to 184, the lowest I remember ever weighing (aside from when I was weighed for a nurse in 5th grade, 142 lbs). I was so proud! But i got cocky, stopped hitting the gym, stopped running, and let my eating habits slip.
Cut to 2015. I was living away from home for the first time with my first love. I thought I was so happy, so why was I gainging weight like crazy? I was 230 when I moved there and one short year later I was 265 when I moved home. In the year I lived away from home was when I tried DietBet for the first time. It kept me so motivated! My now ex-boyfriend did it with me but he never quite stuck it out till the end.
He would act supportive, but it always felt like he didn't care eiter way. So it discouraged me and eventually I stopped to because I didn't want to make him feel bad... So crazy of me! No wonder I was eating all of my emotions!
In the year that I have been back with my family I have gone from 265 down to about 241-3. Just by eating clean and walking here and there. I want to get back in this game.
I have always imagined myself differently and it's time I let my outsiddes match my insides! Being a full-time student and working 2 jobs is not easy, but I want to make the time for myelf. I NEED to make the time for myself!
I will love myself for it in the end, or at least that is what I am told.