For many years I have been over weight and my weight scale was like my enemy. It seems it hated me keeps telling me your gaining more weight more fat to be honest. I have been into several sports and many activities, the thing is I keep sabotaging my diet on a daily basis. I have tried several diets and tried many short term workouts and never succeeded. It seems my life was reveloving me, my mouth and foods. I know many have truly transformed from being obese to being super fit. These people surely motivate me, but again my weight was my enemy. It seems every time I am on the scale is like being on a cliff high on a mountain looking down waiting, deciding what to do. I have tried several home fitness dvds including Insanity. I lost 20 Kgs and was so happy, however, I found myself not entirely consistent and fell in the trap I call being fit. I realized that my mind is playing games on me, you need a lot of power to say no to temptationa especially when you are around people that are not committed just like you. I'm the end I simply got focused and so my diet and weight is just like any maths equation, but this time I really belived it. Not like before, we all know the kcal equation to lose weight more importantly fat. The thing is I convinced my self is that my weight is just a number, sometimes it will go up and sometimes it will go down, it's OK. It's how I feel, it's how am I growing, am I I healthy? Can I play with my kids? Can I lift my beloved like I use to, am I an idols or my kids and family, what will I leave behind the in this world? these are my daily questions that shock my mind daily, that sparks what my soul really needs, not just for the fitness but as a Human being who was perfectly engineered and have all the tools around to rise above all obstacles.