I do like to write but spreading my feelings all over the Internet is an entirely different endeavor. But, recognizing and validating our feelings is quite possibly the best healing we can do. I now weigh more than I ever have, 175 pounds. Oh my goodness! How did that creep up on me? Well, it is a lifetime of feeling like I'm not enough, abuse in my childhood, an unhealthy first marriage where my spouse made me feel fat and unhealthy and so on. Undoubtedly, the root of my recent rapid weight gain is the guilt associated with our adopted son. More to come on that. It makes me cry just to bring it up.
We all have our stories, our hurts, our stresses. I have to get mine out for myself and for anyone else who can relate or gain something from it. I encourage everyone to write it down and share as you are ready. I'm old enough now to not care about the whispers, the offended, the mean, the insecure or anyone else who would choose to take this blog negatively!
I will keep this up! I will conquer my negative self talk. My inspiration...Haley - you know who you are!
The end for now!
Cindy