"Well I've had one piece of chocolate, screw it let me have the whole box"

Yes thank you Amelia, I am glad you can relate! It's such a destructive way of thinking and I am really trying to change it around. Thank you for the tip/thought process about money spent on shitty t-shirts thats also a good way to look at it. I mean i feel like a drug fiend who gets a taste of the good stuff and can't stop and so I need to kick the addiction once and for all! I hope you can also! When you're having one of those days (you and me both) we should come back and read this stuff that we wrote! Haha good luck xx