Week 1:
Starting weight (AM/no clothes)
10/14/2017: 242
10/21/17 237.8
Blood sugar (AM/fasting)
10/14/2017: 151
10/21/2017: 113
Steps:
10/14 - 10/20: 44,857
Picture L on / Picture R on 10/21/2017
For the most part, this week was a positive one. I didn't have too many cravings that made me deviate from my diet. I thought I could resist all workplace temptations, because I'm surrounded by snacks in the workplace, and I never eat them, because they didn't call to me. But they had a giant tray of left over Olive Garden lasagna, and I did not have the willpower to fight that.
I was able to get some cardio in every day. I felt like I had a lot more energy, it was easier to get up in the mornings. I am starting off from such a weak and sedentary beginning, I'm just trying to build any muscle, and a little stamina to start with.
With the extra energy I was able to cook at home a little more. That had been a big downfall recently, was getting takeout because I was too tired to contemplete having to make food to eat. I took down my healthy cookbooks that I'd been ignoring, and came away with some enthusiasm to try and prepare a few new things to see if I like them.
I have had a more difficult time going to sleep and staying asleep. And I did have a lot of strange emotions popping up, like I'd suddenly feel very sad, or very restless, or lonely. Friday I was out shopping with my Mom, and I got just very fatigued, I got a headache, my hands were shaking. We'd eaten a little while before, so I know it wasn't hunger or low blood sugar, I went home and had a long nap, and when I woke up I felt much better, so I really don't know what happened.
I don't think the 4.3 pound loss is at all visible. But my skinny jeans felt a bit looser in the hip/thigh area. I felt a little better about myself, like...hey I'm still fat, but I'm actively trying to be a healthier person, so I had less body shame. Oh, and a little less acne, so yay.
The first week was easier then I anticipated, I think because I'm not on a specific diet, but more trying to adapt my general habits into healthier ones. I haven't done really well with a really strict regiment, it always made me feel panicky, because it was so all or nothing feeling, that I'd generally break out and go wild and eat everything I wasn't supposed to. This time I'm trying to work more with my personality, and find things that I could sustain, and keep that change, instead of something that I do for a temporary and set time.
I have told a few people about dietbets, because I liked the concept. But I really don't want many people to know I'm on a diet, because I'm so scared of failure, like if I fail, I would rather people not know I was even trying. But I've always been like that about everything, I work at things behind the scenes, and then only talk about it, once it's been accomplished. They actually did a psychological study, where people who talked about their goals and got praised for them, were extremely less likely to go on to accomplish them, because their reward center was already fulfilled, and so it made them have less drive, but people who didn't share their goals so much, were more likely to achieve them.