Hello,
My name is Beth Fetterman and I live in a small town in Pennsylvania with my husband and 3 dogs and 3 cats. I’m an animal lover and I’ve been a vegetarian for 1 yr and 8 months now. It’s been a challenge, giving up meat and learning how to eat again. To be honest, I’ve been living on pizza and pasta and rewarding myself with junk. But, I haven’t caved and eaten meat so that’s something. I can’t blame my weight on that though. I’ve been large most of my life except for the couple of years here and there that I “biggest loser’d” it off by doing extreme diets and working out waaaay more than anyone should.
For so long now I’ve felt like such a failure. My self esteem has been so low that I can’t even make it through a day without cracking. The amount of weigh I have to lose seems so unachievable. And I’ve done it before!! The stupid way. And gained it all back plus more. I know the difference between how people treat you when your thin vs overweight and it’s disgusting.
And, I’m turning 40 in July. 40. When did that happen?
But here’s the thing. I haven’t eaten meat in 1 yr and 8 months, and I loved meat. And I haven’t smoked a cigarette in 10 years, and I smoked 2 packs a day. And I’ve over-come my fear of heights for my job. And I’ve worked said job, which I hate, for almost 16 years. And I have done this before. And it was hard then too.
I forgot something about myself for a long time. I’m really good at over-coming shit.
So when I turn 40 in July, I’m gonna do it as someone who’s proud of herself.