So I have realized I am full of stinkin' pride...Ugh! I mean really if I could get rid of that behemoth I am pretty sure I would reach my goal immediately. I realized this as I began this dietbet and have been on it for a week. As soon as I signed up I realized that I would be taking my yearly girls trip with 8 other ladies. This would at some point invole a drink or two(Don't judge) but I didn't really think it would be a big deal. I mean I am pretty fit and I know I'm already in fairly decent shape along with training and doing some other sports in my past. I thought I would have it licked! Let me mention here that almost every other woman on this trip was on some sort of diet. Most are doing incredibly well and are so disciplined. I am extremlely proud of them (and a little jealous) not really, well maybe just a tad.
Still no big deal I mean I'm healthy and know what is right and wrong to eat. Plus I have money riding on this thing so in my mind I've already got this thing beat (without even trying...) I was cocky. I can say "no" to anything. The truth is, I can say no. Truth is, saying no is HARD! Especially when you are sitting around with your friends laughing, having a drink and generally just not paying attention. In my head I just assumed I would make good choices without preparing and having a plan in place. So of course when I was sitting at our favorite restuarant and I was offered a pineapple martini with mango and a jalapeno slice in it... I mean come on how could I say no??? Maybe I could've to the 2nd one but all of a sudden I felt like this was my only chance to EVER have one of these!!! Then when they brought out a dessert menu with a homemade coconut custard pie and homemade whipped cream AND a warm rum sauce, HOW IN THE WORLD COULD I RESIST? I may never ever get this again right? This all took place on the 1st night by the way:(
I also am prone to migraines which just sucks and for the first couple of nights I was battling this monster that just seems to take over when I do something really stupid- like have too much sugar, or chocolate, or alcohol...yes I know what I did here. Even though the entire time I was still so wrapped up in my pride, I refused to see it. As a matter of fact, the only reason I am even confessing the idiocy of what I did is because I came home with another headache that sent me to the dr. which in turn has caused me to take a stupid medicine that knocks me for a loop and makes it almost impossible for me to do the things I need to do for my life ; much less exercise. So while I did manage to not gain weight (I contribute this to God's mercy and feeling sorry for my stupidity in spite of my pride) I didn't really make much progress at all. I am writing this down so that hopefully I will look back at this and not make the same mistake again. I know I will be given the opportunity to do so. I mean my official weigh in is 3 days after my youngest daughter gets married. Now we all know if there was ever a time to make poor choices or be able to justify over indulgence it's when you are dealing with a stressed out 23 year old who expects that her awesome mom will fix anything that may possibly go wrong and that she will have the wedding of all her pinterest dreams....
So since I am pretty sure I am the only one reading this anyway- I say to myself, Stephanie! DO NOT SCREW THIS UP! Get off your ass and move and be prepared because if you don't- you will fail.