I have accomplished and have been lucky enough to experience so many of my life goals these last few years, within the context of traveling fitness and relationships, so how is it possible that I'm starting from scratch all over again.
After graduating from university with my degree in Nursing, I decided to shift my focus from all of my 'obligations' and to pursue what was truly important to me, and fulfilled that part of me that was neglected for so many years while studying and working an emotionally draining job.
I've backpacked through South America, Africa, and Europe, completed my first Half Marathon, wandered through the Inca Trail in Peru and slept under the stars of the Sahara Desert. With all these experiences, my weight has fluctuated, and now I truly feel as though I'm back to square one...yet again. A place where I didn't believe it was possible to be at ever again.
I get off track, and before I know it I've binged my way to 15-20 extra pounds, waking up with no recollection of how it happened or WHY half that chocolate cake in the fridge is missing. Did someone break in?! Or perhaps in my red wine haze, after a bad shift, I decided "you deserve this" and gobbled it up. I chose to believe there was a cake burglar.
What I actually deserve is a strong, healthy body, not the short lived cocaine euphoria that comes with carbs and sugary sweets.
I want this shell, this exterior body that houses my soul, to finally match the light that's within me. From my experience I have realized that my body is always strong enough; it will always be able to run that last mile, or hold that yoga pose for 10 more seconds. Your body will carry you there, what it comes down to is the message you send yourself, your mental strength that will determine whether you DECIDE to allow your body to take you that extra mile.
The extra weight that hangs on my bones is not part of me, it does not define me; it tells a story, yes, but a superficial one.
This is my first DietBet challenge and first blog post I have ever written; I'm not comfortable with sharing a personal story, or putting myself out there to the world, but my theory is that this time I need to make myself vulnerable, and have some accountability.
-A