Wednesday, October 22, 2014.
Day 1 of this dietbet challenge. Day 1 of another way for me to try and lose weight. My outlook is somewhat of a positive one, however, I am infamous for falling off the wagon around week 2. My life has been a roller coaster of weight gains and staying afloat, never really "losing" a significant amount of weight. I have a go getter mentality in the beginning and then once I slip, I spiral out of control and have to start over...a cycle that I have created for myself that I MUST get out of..it almost feels psychotic in a sense..
I've been doing Beachbody programs for the past two years. No significant weight loss BUT I am currently at the lowest weight I have been since I can remember. I hope to surpass that with this challenge..
As much as I want to lose weight, I'm almost scared of the physical change, is that weird?.. I know it sounds crazy because who doesnt want to lose weight? but this body is all I know. How to dress myself to cover what I don't want people to see--hiding behind cute sweaters and flowy tops. I'm not comfortable in my own skin by any means but what will I look like? It's a strange concept to try to understand but something I have thought about for a while..
I will take this challenge seriously. I mean, who doesnt want their money back, right? But my main focus should be the weight loss, not the money. I will blog every day, maybe throw in a quote or a motivating image. I just want to commit and stay consistent. Hopefully we all will!
After reading back--man do i sound so blah-zay--sheesh. I blame it on the rain ;)