As a kid I was always skinny. I ate junk and it didn't matter. At least I thought it didn't. When I was 24 I started to have extreme pain in the middle of my chest. I would have to bend over in my chair and breathe through the pain. I would get hot flashes and dizzy spells. I went to see my primary care physician a couple of time to see why I was always nauseated and why I would experience these episodes. They did not find anything for 9 months. I was driving home one day from work and I started to have an attack. I was right by an instacare and I decided I needed to find out what was going on. They gave me an IV for extreme dehydration and sent me to go get and ultrasound and CT scan of my abdomen.
Well, this is what I did to myself. I killed my gallbladder by eating crap for 24 years. I can honestly tell you that I did not eat green food or vegetables ever. I could count the number of times on one hand. After my gallbladder surgery I found out I was pregnant with my first child. I gained 15 pound after my surgery so when I found out I was pregnant I was, for the first time in my life, not happy with my body. I gained 60 pounds in 9 months and gave birth to a 10 pound boy.
It took me having my own children to get me to eat vegetables. I didn't want to be a hypocrite. I slowly found ways to cook veggies so that I would like them. I lost the 60 pounds I gained but I still struggled with my body image. Stretch marks and saggy skin was hard to digest.
We found out we were going to have another child and I vowed to show my awesome self control during pregnancy this time. Unfortunately I gained 60 pounds again. I realized that my metabolism during pregnancy was nonexistent. Who knows why? I would try to eat healthy but I still packed on the pounds. So I had to lose it again. 2 years of working my butt off and I finally was at my normal weight or my wedding dress weight :)
Then baby number two came. My eating habits at this point were great! I now had a great healthy balanced diet and I was sure I could do better this time around. Well I did until I was put on bed rest at 30 weeks and I gained 40 of the last 60 pounds my last trimester. I had baby number three and I started the journey again back to me.
My baby is 2 1/2, she is potty trained and miss sassy pants. I have spent 6 years of the last 7 years losing pregnancy weight. Right when I reach my goal within 6 months I am pregnant.
This journey is almost to an end. I have 11 pounds to lose to get back to my wedding dress weight. I would lose the weight all over again for my kids. My regrets are for treating my body so poorly when I was younger. I want to teach my children to fuel their bodies with good food. I was sick, tired, and sluggish and not clear minded when I was eating junk. I want to live my life with energy and clarity. My goal is to start this new phase of motherhood with my head held high. I have been losing weight for 6 of the last 7 years. I am ready to say goodbye to the fat and hello to an active, healthy family life!