We all struggle with weight. Im no different then the rest. Its time to shed this weight and find the body I'm comfortable in! My will power has always betrayed me. My plan of attack this time is to "fake it til i make it". I'm going to pretend I don't want that donut. Say I am full after one serving and find something better to do. I have to do it this time for myself and my family. My life has changed drastically in the past month and it is time to put control back in my own hands. My health has been rough after the birth of my twins in June. I thought that after giving birth i might start to feel a little better, and I did for about 6 weeks. I lost all my weight and some (and a lot), I had so much more energy. Then the energy started to leave. I noticed it was getting difficult to go up stairs, change out the laundry, carry my babies. I chalked this all up to being physically deconditioned and plain "out of shape". Then i noticed i couldnt breath as well when doing these taskes and my lips would turn blue. I decided to have a physical before starting a work out regimine. I thought maybe i was severely anemic. November 26, 2014 I was diagnoised with pulmonary hypertension. This is a chronic condition where the vessle that feed your heart are smaller, constricted for some reason or another, making it difficult for your heart to pump blood to "feed" your lungs. I am currently undergoing test to find the cause of why I developed this. 20 years ago this diagnosis came with the life expectancy of 2 years untreated and 3-5 with treatment. It has come a long way since then but there is still no cure. I am just starting a long journey ahead. I want to make the desicion to treat my body the best i can so it can, in return, keep me going with my children and allow me to see them grow up. There is no taking anything for granted or day that goes by that I cant cherish. There will also be no pity party for me so I better suck it up, put the damn brownie down and loose some weight! So here it goes.
Height: 5' 1.5"
Build: curvier. I carry weight in my chest and stomach. Post partum 6 months with twins. Currently breast feeding. 3 pregnancies total
Cravings: sweets
Down falls: a lot of coffee and portion sizes
Pre baby 1: 125lbs
Pre baby 2: 130lbs
Pre babies 3&4 150
6wks post partum: 124lbs (it was tough being pregnant with twins and sucked every ounce out of me.)
CW: post dinner, right before bed, after 3 holiday parties, no scale watching for 1 week. 144lbs
GW For diet bet: as of now 138 but i plan on starting a bit early so hopefully with a few days of water drinking and scale watching ill start the diet at 140 and have a GW of 134
Ultimate goal weight: 124lbs by May 9th, my 31st bday.