So you know; I can't spell and I use the word "so" ALL THE TIME
Wasn't going to make this public because, you know, what if I quit or fail - but that sort of goes against the whole "I'm going to do it this time" mindset I'm attempting to culitvate/claiming to possess - realllllly need to have. Okay, yeah, I got it. I'm sticking with it this time - I'm paying for this afterall! I have a trip in April, another in June, another in July, a wedding in July and some college reunion action in August - if that doesn't motivate me what will?
So another day and a half of indulging, although it doesn't feel like indulging anymore. I actually think I can feel the fat cells on my thighs multiplying. I'm pretty sure of it. I'm kind of looking forward to the food part - a month of holiday treats has me a bloated, sluggish mess! But I'm giving up booze until my 42nd birthday (2/8), doing a Whole 30 thing with friends. I really love booze. More than I should. Not in a black out kind of way but in a muffin top sort of way. Sitting on the couch with a glass of wine (or a beer, or vodka, or tequila and lime - I really don't discriminate, ok maybe a little, I don't drink malt liquor - who am I kidding, I probably would) anyway, it sort of says "ok, another one down, I'm done for the night". It was suggested to me that I should switch to tea. That seems stupid but I bought a bunch of tea. I'm going to be an evening tea drinker - less fun, but a component of my "going to do it this time" mindset.
I'm a pretty consistent with exercise, so I got that going for me, plan to step it up but activity has never been my problem. In fact my two spring trips involve me running 13 miles or so. I just really love to eat, a lot, and did I mention I love booze?
Weigh in will be 1/1 - I'm terrified! I'm sure I am the heaviest I have ever been. Like in my third trimester heavy. So that'll be something to get my head around. I am really commited to doing this but it seems daunting. Hope to get some support here.
Goold luck everyone!