I am new to this whole blogging idea but I am stopping at nothing to get this weight down.
My title is something I have been thinking on for a long time. It stands for AFRAID TO TRY AND FAIL
I have needed to loose weight for about 15 years. My biggest fear is that I will loose it and gain it back! That fear is so strong that it has kept me from continuing any thing I try. If I don't try, I don't fail right?I know for many this might not make sense but i have been thinking on this for so long, I have no idea why I do not stick to anything, I have no major traumas growing up, was very thin and athletic until I was 32 or so. Even lost all my baby weight and was running again. Then all of a sudden, bam, 10 pounds came on in months. They would not budge! 10 is now 40 pounds that I would like to shed. Then I started paying attention to people who lost and regained and it litterally froze me. I have known SO many people that have lost and regained. As a matter of fact, I can only think of 1 person that has kept off his weight for several years. All the others have put it back on. I do not want to be that person! I will not be that person!
So there, now it's out there, I have to try! I told the world(at least the Diet bet world) that I am going to give this the Old College Try!!!
The workouts are not an issue. The eating is my issue. And for me, it's not eating enough. Oh, I can put away the calories, but then it's on all the wrong foods. When I have to eat "Healthy" I just do not eat enough calories. Most days I am around 1100 Calories, but I have burnt around 300 on the stair master. I have been known to eat less than 800 on a regular basis, so I have totally screwed up my metabolism.
I am only putting this out there so I can start with a clean slate, I know what I need to do and now I am going to do it1
Whew, that felt good!