iam tired of being fat and feeling inadequate and looking at people and wondering damn i wish i was like that , am tired of feeling insecure about my weight and trying to hide it .By acting as if it doesnt bother me am tired of my family yelling, hey that is to much , your body is not a dustbin when i dish out my food i am ready to change and take absolute control of my body , i know i have hit rock bottom when the jacket i ordered which i have been eyeing for months didnt fit me , iam tired of lookig pregnant when am not even close to that .i just want to go back to being the jovial, Oge who  had confidence in her self .