Time to grow up

I am sorry it has been so rough on you. I completely understand where you're coming from. Sleep is something I always always always put off. Then I whine when I don't get enough, but I wake up every 60-90 minutes anyway. I don't have a child of my own, but I know how much worse it gets when my niece comes to stay with me for weeks at a time, or I go to stay my brother's house with her for weeks at a time. It is rough because kids demand so much of our time. I really feel for you. I don't know how you're doing it all alone for now. I say any single parent, or any full-time parent at all is a Saint. You deserve medals!!! Don't beat yourself up too much over the scale and the cookies and the lack of sleep. You at least have your mind in the right spot and know what's best for you. Try and pick one thing you can focus on improving. Work on that one thing for a couple of weeks and then try improving something else too. Baby steps make the changes a lot easier sometimes.