I let a tiny little person decide for me

I had a great day yesterday! After being sick again during weekend, had high fever this time. I went to work managed to solve some issues. I noticed I'm not too far behind with my masters studies. Just to makes sure I get my exrcise done I did T25 alpha total when I got home. I fed the kids and they went skating. I realised I could still go to my Taekdondo practise, it has been a while since all the illnesses and because there are some bad wibes in our adult group. Kids group is still awesome. Last time our youngest boy asked if I could come to their family as a mother :) My youngest daugther says "N-O".

Anyways I did another hour of training, quite hard actually. Lot of speed and sparring and I managed to deliver some decent double round house kicks. That much I have got my weight down (these require holding yourself in the air until the second kick has been delivered). Then the last couple of minutes the sensei wanted to do something I just wasn't up to, too long pause in training and all, so I asked to leave and he said OK. At the same time our other black belt a young girl with attitude has got herself finally up from the floor (stomach ache she said). And starts laughing at me, like I was pathetic and quiting or something. I managed to walk out with my gear, grinding my teeth and not commenting. At home I felt so bummed I ate (I had eaten dinner already) and had couple of beers. This was not the first time this adolescent almost olympic athlete pick on me. But it will be the last. I wrote to my sensei I will not tolerate this so I wont be coming to these trainings with this thing hanging around the gym. But the sad part is I let this tiny little person affect my mood and own goals and ruin a perfect da at nine in the evening.

Cara H.

01/29/2015 6:43AM

You are being very smart. You let your body dictate what you can and can't do. That takes maturity and respect for your body. On the girl front, I'm surprised your sensei hasn't said something before this to her. I'm not in taekwondo but from friends in the past that were in the sport, I got the feeling that their sensei would not have allowed that shit. Being a fitness instructor, I would not allow that shit. I've had to tell guys to back off and leave others alone (overly flirty/creepy, not malicious). It's not an easy conversation (in my book malicious would be easier) but as an instructor, it's one that I need to be prepared to have. Now that you've said something, your sensei should take care of the situation. If he doesn't, I'd talk to the gym owner or start looking at other gyms. On the grad study side, way to go! Keep it up.

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JeannieBee61

Unfortunately, sometimes that is life--you get knocked down (in this case, emotionally) when you are just trying to live your life. I am in agreement with Cara. It is almost too bad you didn't go to the sensei in front of the young, immature thing who was bullying. What we do with what happens to us is ours to own. In this case, you stayed mad enough to sand bag your good intentions rather than make her your target (mentally) for those next few strikes to put the anger where it belonged instead of attacking yourself...and possibly playing into your old tapes of "not good enough," "not worth it," "can't succeed," etc.,

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