Hello, I'm Rachel Zickafoose (Hicks) as some of you know. I am a mother of 3, one 9 year old boy, 2 girls ages 3 and 6, and married to Christopher Zickafoose. I am currently 29, and will be THIRTY (AHHH) on May 24th this year. My husband and I have been together for 8 years, and married for 2.5 going on 3 come August.
In my life I have always struggled with the way I looked. I can only recall one time I was happy and content with myself. In high school I wasn't lean nor fit. I felt that my weight always got in the way of things, as in my self confidence, deffinatly appreace and guys, ect. I tried many, many awful things to lose weight at that time. I tried to make myself puke, that was unsuccessful, I would take many different diet pills, which was unsuccessful, and then I fell into drugs. I lost weight, I was happy to lose weight, but I was no where doing it right or healthy. I was stuck in this for almost an entire year of my life, and at that time I didnt care.. I was losing weight, and it was working. It was getting pregnant with my daughter in 2008 that stopped all that. I quit. I had Cortni and went on to pursue a career as a CNA. At this time I was still smaller than high school, but bigger than I was before the pregnancy. I started my job, and I started to lose weight. The RIGHT way! I way proud of myself. I felt better. I looked better. I had confidence. I was still considered over weight at this time.. but I was happy. I then became pregnant with my 3rd child. Right when all the weight was falling off. I struggled with this. I got HUGE, I retained water like crazy, and had excessive amounts of amiotic fluid. I ended up having to have a c-section with her. My first. I hated the thought and my worst nightmare was happening. I still dont have feeling around my incision area and its been 3 years. After having Brie I was losing weight little by little, I got married in August of 2012 and then after that, I lost all complete controll and it all started to pile on, before I knew it I was OVER 200lbs when before pregnancy I was down to 170-175. I became very depressed. I am unhappy with myself for letting it get this bad and I hate the fact that whatever I wear I dont feel confident or comfortable in unless its a hoodie and jeans. I believe I am a food ADDICT. I would eat emotional, boredum, for taste, and whatever other reason there is. I recently over the last year decided I NEEDED to change, for myself. I have been on an on and off again roller coaster diet/lifestyle change for a while now. I struggle EVERY single day. I aruge with myself about what to eat. Near the end of last year, my sister in law really inspired me, shes lost 50lbs in a year. I buckled down on myself and started losing.. i lost roughly 20lbs, then the holidays came, I got lazy you cuold say and pretty much gained it ALL back .. I again hated myself for doing that to myself. Last month i decided to get back on my wagon.. because I HAVE TOO. I have changed all my eating habits .. again .. and started a little excersie regimin. I have also signed up for some services through Focused On Fitness, and I can't wait to see what Liz comes up with for me. I joined this game to give me that extra umph. I am hoping this will help me achieve my goals for the next month!