Well, I'm not the type to show pictures of me in a skimpy anything. I find it hard to look at my own "before" photos, because they are, honestly, very unappealing. That being said, I decided to show my weight in my personal dietbet settings. I thought about it for a minute and really considered "Do I want anyone to know?" It was a moment of conflict, because it's hard to acknowledge how far I've let myself go. I've never been a skinny person, and I have accepted that...in fact, I prefer natural and firm curves, to hard bodies on women...and I know my husband does, too. Still, it is very difficult to come to terms with where I am standing from a weight standpoint. It's about 10 lbs easier today than it was 4 weeks ago. Here's to meeting and exceeding my dietbet goal!
One thing I've been reminding myself on this journey, however, is to "own it". I will own my body, I will own my weight, I will own my progress. This is who I am, but I am going to get better and I am going to know that by God's grace, I can achieve my goal of health, confidence and personal fitness. If I acknowledge that this is my body, then I will care for it and improve it and give glory to God by doing so. I will not give myself excuses. I will not hide in the shadows. I am blessed with a healthy body that pretty much does what I ask of it. There are some who can't say that. If I don't take care of the skin I'm in, then I will have some responsibility for "malfunctions". Ultimately, I can't fend off the weaknesses and frailties of being human, but I can protect and care for this mortal shell to the best of my ability and leave the rest in the hands of the Almighty. Maybe this body can be considered a type of "talent" and I'll not bury mine in the earth.
Grace and Peace!