Dieting isn't for me.

So I have decided I will never diet again. The problem I have with "diets" is that they are do X get Y formulas. Well let me go back a little. I've been obese about 90% of my life from late childhood all the way through adulthood with a little tiny period of slim in the middle. I can't diet anymore. I have to have a lifestyle change. This isn't about losing X number of lbs. or fitting into a size X. It is about wanting to be this healthy person who eats food that fuels her body. It's about wanting to eat because I want to live and stop living to eat. I want to know that "cheat meals" are actually a punishment to my body. When I was as healthy as I've ever been when I'd eat something fried or super processed, I'd literally feel nauseas. I have been addicted to sugar for years it's not where I want to be. So this isn't a goal weight or a goal size deal. This is wanting to be the healthiest I can be, consistently, lifelong. I want to have children soon and I want to have a healthy pregnancy and when they are born I want them to learn healthy habits. Reach for an apple today and it will teach you that the cake and cookies are a fleeting high. I will never diet again, I will be a healthy person who considers her body as a temple of God and I wouldn't bring trash into God's temple would I? I am worth the effort, just because my road is a long one doesn't mean I shouldn't travel it. The time will pass either way!