Okay to start this is not the heaviest I've been, that weight would be 312. I hit that weight in a very depressing marriage. Once I stared the process on ending that marriage my weight came off. Now the lowest I got with this for that point til now was 228. Now i'm back up to 250ish, and I can't stand the way I feel or look in the mirror. You see up until 12 years ago I was consistently under the 200 mark. The doctors had no concerns about my weight. I don't even know how it got so out of control. I do know that cutting my caffiene intake is going to be my biggest challenge. I can say it is a drug and the withdrawals from it are worse than any drug withdrawal. I know that my 10 year old daughter needs her mom, I am the only one she has and I can't let her down. I think she is enjoying holding me accountable for my caffiene intake and the stretches we do every day together, gives mom a little taste of me holding her accoutable for her cheerleading. I know that this isn't for me, but i don't want to be that mom that her kid is asshamed of especially during her competition season. This is my first challenge and also my first bog about really how I feel. It is time for a fresh start and that has to start with me.