WOW!!! WHAT AN AMAZING POST!!! I really enjoyed reading it because it reminded me of where I was & where I don't EVER EVER want to go back to again!!! :-) Kate, I love the fact that you've come face to face with your true self & faced your demons (that's what I'll call them because we're haunted by all of those events). When you joined DietBet, you took the 1st step to start making positive changes in your life, & what you've been going through is gonna come to an end!!! Good for you!!! I'm really proud of you!!! No one said that losing weight is gonna be easy, but with patience, preparation, consistency, & determination, you'll successfully achieve your weight loss goal. I'm rooting for you Kate!!! YOU CAN & WILL DO IT!!! :-)