OK, so I've hit a plateau. First two months I lost 10 pounds, and now I am STUCK. I still have time to easily make the goal. What I'm lacking is MOTIVATION. How do I find it again? I was so psyched the first two months. Now I feel ambivolent. Someone puts a brownie in front of me, and I pop it in my mouth with barely a second thought. My brain says, "You can be good tomorrow." But I'm running out of tomorrows!

Part of me wants to beat myself up over this, give up, admit I just don't have what it takes. But another part of me KNOWS I can do this. I've done it before. I can be so disciplined when I want to be. What can I do to find that discipline again?

This is not just a diet, this is a lifestyle I'm trying to achieve. I am 45. I want to live a long, happy, healthy life. I want to be able to make good choices about how I treat my body. I don't want to be struggling with this good girl/bad girl syndrome all my life. But when it comes to food, that's me to a t.

So what am I going to do about it? The answer is not coming to me tonight. But maybe it's enough tonight to say that I'm not going to give up. There's got to be a way to do this & I'm going to keep trying until I figure this out.