I had two days in a row where I faced my biggest challenge and the results were not good. I am a social eater. I know that I tend to eat (and drink) based on the activity, not my personal health goals or according to hunger. And for two days in a row we had (admittedly unusual) midweek engagements with friends, and I just ate pizza and burgers and drank beer like I was in college and had never even heard the word "diet."
I had a really great trend going since mid-December of very few days where I ate over my maintenance calories -- so even if I wasn't losing at least I wasn't gaining. But now I am in that place where I feel like I fell off the bandwagon. I started a Kickstarter which I was nervous about anyway, and now I feel like I'm starting an already hard challenge from behind. Ugh.
I think I know how to start again though. Eat clean today, and then tomorrow I'll have that little streak started again and that pride of doing well will return.
But right now this is the ugly place. This is where I feel like things will never change and I'll always go back to old habits if I'm allowed, etc.
Today's Goal
After calorie binging two days, I'll have two no alcohol days as penance. In addition, I'm going to try for under 1300 calories today and then adjusting to under 1600 as my norm for this kickstarter.
Yesterday's Goal
Under Calorie Goal: NO
Under Maintenance Goal: NO
Exercised: NO