We all have them, but as a bipolar, I guess my inner dialogue is a bit wose than ordinary. You know, the little voices that keep talking you down, with the voices of everybody who ever told you something about yourself. The voices that say stuff like: "Just give up", You'll never make this", "You can always have one bite" " and your own voice going: " why shuld I bother about my makeup or worry about my clothes, I look like a cow anyway"
I am not hearing actual voices of course, it is the voices of my own thoughts, and I know I am not alone. I try to find the right answers. I try to come up with some mantras to protect myself against my own negative thoughts. I'll share some of them. Some are completely my own words, some I have learned when working with psychiatrist or psychologist.
"Just give up" and that category:
I will stumble, I will fall, but I will get back up and never give in!
I know how it feels like to be a looser, now watch me win!
I am stronger than you know! ( I talk back as if the thought have a life of its own, ok.)
" just one bite" and that train:
I am not a dog, I will not reward myself with food
It can wait till saturday, my guilt-free day!
Thou shalt not pass!
" why bother" and its family:
Because I know I have it in me to change my life!
Because I want to live as the best me I can be!
Because I get stronger and healthier ( and I must admit- more beautiful) for every single pound!
"How many times have you failed?" "This road is too long" and those lines slightly off the "give up" -category:
Never look back, I have come a long way already!
The turtle always wins!
Error is human, I choose to forgive myself
Sometimes it actually works!