This is my Monday after a long weekend and it is really Tuesday. It is the first day of the rest of my life. I have found that as things have moved forward at a slow pace they are now moving faster. Maybe because the anticpation has gotten to the breaking point, maybe it is just that some time has passed and I am closer to where I am headed. In four weeks I will be sitting in my first meeting of the Bariatric program and while I am still scared I am prepared for the necessary steps I need to take, well almost prepared. I am making changes that will fit into the program. I have increased my water intake and lowered my sugar-y drink consumption. I didnt realize that I had allowed that to enter into my day again. Next week I will work on my coffee for two reasons: one, I am getting heartburn from it again and two, I don't think it will fit into the program well considering I will be using shakes as my menu for a few weeks.
Today is also the start of my new certificate course, I am doing an online course for Child and Adolescent Mental Health certificate. So I am navigating the course, waiting for text books to arrive and just generally feeling like "why am I doing this?" I know I will do fine but I always seem to have these thoughts as I start something new. It is scary to make these changes but they are needed so that I can move into my future and to make it the best that it can be.
So while I am dealing wtih the apprehension and fear I also am feeling excited. I know this is ok because we need these in our life to realize that we are changing and moving forward.
It is time to take ahold of my future and bend it to me!! to make my life shine!! to take those tentative baby steps, shaky steps until I am able to stand and run!!
Here is to everything that is laid out in front of me and the ablity to rock whatever I put my mind to!!!