it is just a number, it is not me!!

Posted on June 30, 2017

Today I have had the rare opportunity to enjoy some quiet time. I took the time to sit and let my thoughts just flow. I enjoy those quiet moments where I can be alone with my thoughts and just let them flow where they will go.

Today is weigh out day for one of my diet bets and I have stepped on the scale only to see that I am up a little bit. This was one of the thoughts that flowed through and I locked onto. I realized that we are all on a simular journey and these days are important to the journey. I also realized that this could make or break my day, today I chose not to let it be my day. This is my journey!!

As I have thought of the events of the week I am celebrating the fact that I am not letting the number on the scale affect my day. As the thoughts flowed they tracked back to my maintenance session on Wednesday which was body image. Some of the conversation was around images in the media, how we see ourselves, what people say to us and yes what we say to ourselves. Then the day afterward a diet bet host posted about self talk. Now today I am dealing with a number on the scale that is higher than before.

I have found myself reflecting on the body image session and the post of negative self talk this morning rather than the number on the scale. This is a great step forward and a major accomplishment. The words that came next to me were "it is just a number" now these words may have gotten me to this state in the past just because of denial but today these words are a comfort. The truth is it is just a number!!! I have seen the number go down and I have seen the number go up, the fact remains this number doesnt define me. I am me, I am who I am supposed to be. It is just a number, it is not me. This number is not my body. I can make choices this number can not. Even my body is not me. It doesnt define who I am. It is a vessal that holds my soul. It is just one part that makes up who I am.

So as I sit and reflect I realize that it is just a number, it is not me. It is just a body, it is not me. A vessal to hold the soul who is me and that is beautiful and that is me.

Today is going to be a great day because IT IS JUST A NUMBER, IT IS NOT ME!!!!

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Paula B.

07/19/2017 12:23PM

Love it! Can I borrow that? lolIt is just a number, it is not me! Woot!

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BCbabe

go for it Paula, use it where ever you need it!!

Biking Syl

07/01/2017 8:06AM

Great post! Love it! I'm about to start a new weight loss attempt myself and I will make sure to record weight *and* measurements, as well as fitness level, so I have many ways to compare. And again, I agree, that's not *me*, just numbers. At this point, not gaining is a big success already. So I need to remind myself that anything toward a healthier life style is wonderful. I need to work toward a healthier me, but that still does not define me as a person. Let's just keep moving toward a better future of great choices for ourselves, even though it might be a zigzag road to get there.

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BCbabe

You said Syl, it is movement toward a healthier lifestyle. We define who we are not the numbers we see

Marcie

06/30/2017 2:01PM

Great stride forward Valerie - your post put a big smile on my face. Too many of us let the number on the scale ruin our day which really when you think about it, is so unfortunate. There are so many indicators of health and progress with with our weight and you just nailed one of them!

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BCbabe

Thanks Marcie. I have had a lot of support both here and in my bariatric program makes the journey a little easier and the celebration is just as much my friends here as well as mine.

Louise

06/30/2017 8:36AM

Hello old friend! I am having similar issues with my weight! I got down two years ago and bought new clothes only to have let my guard down LAST Thanksgiving through Christmas and New Years! big mistake! I gained back a little over 20 pounds! and those pounds must love me because they refuse to leave my body! ha! But I am still watching my weight (boring... does nothing fun!) and walking (I LOVE STEPBET! - it's a phone app for anyone whose reading this and not doing it!) I am trying to up my walking to 20,000 steps a day, but most days I only hit 16,000+ -- I know you are walking too so ... HANG IN THERE! You are a beautiful person and you know the pounds just love you!

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BCbabe

Louise, I have missed you!!! Yes walking is the only steady thing I have going on. I really truly believe that I have starved my body for so long (poor diet, low calories, too much exercise) that it is going to take time to get it back to "normal" I continue to "walk this journey" and treat myself as I would treat my best friend.