So here I am, twenty pounds heavier than I was last year. It's kind of a depressing place to be. The concept of loving myself now, before I've lost weight, is not easy for me. The result? I've closed myself off from important relationships. I've allowed myself to participate in a downward spirial of self-pity and self-depreciation. I've decided that I want to change. I want to enjoy life. I want to better the world. I want to be healthy. I want to take care of my body.
I'm a full-time student, part-time secretary, wife, daughter, granddaughter, sister, friend, neighbor, and now with a new weight-loss plan, I'm overhwelmed to say the least. It feels like I'll never be able to do all that I'd like to. But my husband taught me an important lesson last night.
Life is meant to be enjoyed right now. Not once I'm healthy, not once I'm "perfect", but right in this very moment of beautiful imperfection. Dishes, laundry, homework, or meal planning seem so crucial and important, but life is passing me by while I worry.
Ah! It is so simple. Yet so easy to forget. I hope you will all join me as I enjoy me, right now! Grief from losing my dad to cancer has invited me to disconnect from the world and even myself. This is my attempt to reconnect to both. I feel so much love and support already, and make a promise to put more into all those relationships that encourage and uplift me in powerful ways.
Y'all are babes. Keep dancing in the rain. Let's do this thing.
Feeling grateful,
Tori