My weight is a reflection of my past heartaches, life experiences and my focus on others. I could re-tell my story however my desire is to no longer be defined by my losses. Getting caught up in the "why me" and "it's not fair" led me to seek comfort rather than find my strength; it left me feeling like a victim to my circumstances. I am no longer a victim. In reality I never was a victim, however the perspective I saw things through tainted my thoughts and had me believing in untruths. Conversely, everyone commented how strong I was - ugh! I didn't necessarily want to be strong, I secretly desired someone else to just take the wheel.
New Chapter - "We are each a product of our own belief system"
I believe in me! Now, I embrace my strength. All the traits I desired I already possessed - a new perspective offers much hope, wisdom and grace. When I look upon my past efforts to lose weight, get organized or change some aspect of myself I realize they were just practice sessions. I truly wasn't ready, for if I was self-sabotage would not have been a tactic of my change process. I am thankful for that learning experience. What is different this time - trust, faith, gratitude and believing in that fact that I am worthy! I am worthy I living the life I truly desire! I deserve to have my dreams realized. I am blessed, loved and able. I am grateful for this opportunity and for the people who are a part of this journey with me. Much success to all!