So I'm not new to this weight loss game. I managed to drop 90lbs back in 2012. I do tend to live in those glory days and hang my hat on that accomplishment. Since that drop, I've gained it all back, plus an additional 50lbs or so.
Guys. I. Am. Fat.
Posting this before picture is horribly eye opening. I can understand why my body is under so much strain. But if I learned anything from 2012 it is that I cherished my before pictures more than anything. When I started, I was so ashamed of my size and didn't want to focus on it... just focus on the food and the movement. I didn't start visually documenting my progress until I had lost the first 30-40lbs. Once I had tackled those hurdles... abandoned those calories... I deeply regretting not at least having a photo for myself from the beginning to compare it to.
I am all about facing our fears. I fear, in the age of technology and zero privacy, that I will be mocked or my images reposted somewhere that criticizes fat people. But, even if it does... even if I'm floating out there on some fat shamer's website... no one I know looks for things like that. No one I know cares about that. No one I want to know gives any crediblity to such trolls.
So here we are. This is what 425.4lbs looks like on my 5'10" frame.
Nanette... Your body deserves better than this. Looking at that side view, I can see why your back aches frequently and I know how much you dread that little bit of belly peeking out from under shirts. But on a gentle note, I'm loving that my legs look like legs. my butt looks like a butt. And that my posture hasn't horribly been compromised by all the desk sitting.
I can see why, with all that weight pressing down on your thighs, walking with long strides or quickly is difficult. Or with all that weight constantly dragging your abs loose, you may not have the breath control you once had. But girl, you got this. You can turn this around. This diet bet may be just what you need to get the ball rolling. We know how fiscally motivated you are.
And let's be real about your investment in change this time around.
Fitbit $150
Subscription to Sweatflix $9.99 per month
Gym membership $49.00 monthly
Diet bets: $160 (January)
Total January: $370.00
You got this.
Fat but positive.
I love you.
Nanette