My struggle with weight seems like it has been since the day I was born! The "chunky" baby, the plumpy child...overweight teen...now an obese adult, obese and probably considered morbidly obese :(. Its not easy to even type those words but I did to call it what it is.
My life hasn't been easy, this is my story...
As a child, I was sexually abused by a neighbor boy several times, which totally messed with my image of myself and definition of love. Then my mother died when I was 15... so that added to my problems with weight as a teen. Then just when I thought I was figuring out everything, I was voilated by the father of children I was babysitting for. :/ So I put on weight, I know to try to protect myself. Finally in 2003, I had enough, I had to forgive all the people who had hurt me and with my brothers help and encouragement lost almost 100lbs. I remember the looks of pride from him and my father, it was the best feeling ever!!!
Then in 2006, I got lazy in my exercise and eating habits and in what felt like a blink of an eye had gained all of it but 30lbs back! When my father became ill and was in the hospital for over 100days, but was finally able to return home but then he fell and died as a result in 2008...so started to put weight on again. Then in 2009, my brother came up with the idea of all of us(my 2 sisters, him and myself) would once and for all do this together, get the weight off, he made it like this program, we agreed to pay $10/mo for a yr and whoever had the greatest percent of loss would win it all. Great plan, we were all excited and ready to do it, when tragedy struck again! My brother was killed in a car accident 2wks after we had started. Needless to say, the give a crap meter went to zero and has been there since.
It has to change now, I need to do this, I want to do this! This will be a small step on my journey to getting 120lbs off....one step at a time...one day at a time.
I want to be able to look up to heaven and say...I did it, I did it!!!