Lose weight the fun way.

It has been a long year.. I started last Aug 2013 with Weight watchers.. This is my who knows how many times at it lol.. About 10 omg 10 years ago I lost 110 lbs and got to my lowest of 235 I think it was. My goal then was to have a baby.. everything was going that way until we moved back to CA. We moved in with my mother in law (i know tell me about it) and well having a baby was not an option.. Sooo i lost my goal... lost my motivation.. and well lost my kitchen so I gained it all back and some.. So when you tell me to list my goals i try to be really carful what I choose to write..

This time has been different.. I am down 88 lbs so far (well I was until I gained 4 lbs last week) . I am doing ww and walking a lot I started off in the gym a lot then quit the gym and started doing stuff at home etc etc. My motivation this time is me.. I want to be the person God created me to be and I cant at this weight. I cant do the things he calls me to do. my body is 100% in the way. My husband and I lead our youth group at church for about 4 years and I noticed myself getting lazier and lazier. Not wanting to play.. to tired or sore to do anything with them.. Thats when it really hit.. I have this HUGE calling on my life and if I can't do it then what.. So I started yet again.. It has been a struggle.. sometimes daily.. I have a SERIOUS food addiction no joke. I am trying to figure out my head and why I do the things I do, why I eat when I do. etc etc. I am trying to rely on Him more then I do food.. But it is a challenge and I do NOT have it figured out yet.. I may never have it figured out but I need and I will keep going..

My goals..

The main goal I have is to fit.. There are so many things I want to do in life that I can't because of my weight. I don't want to be restricted anymore. I want the world to be an open door. I have been stuck in this body way to long. I have been overweight all my life. Im done..

I want to fit in booths at restaurants, fit in clothes so I can shop anywhere! Fit in the race cars, on rides at amusement parks, in my husbands arms better, in peoples cars better, I want to not have to think ohhh I cant go because I dont know if I will fit!!!! Concert seats, sporting events, etc etc etc. I WANT TO FIT!!!

Now dont get me wrong the baby idea is still in my head but I don't want a goal that can go away does that make sense?

Anyways.. I am using this #dietbet to get back on track. The past month or so I have gained about 5 lbs and I dont want to fall into my old ways. I am pretty competitive so I am hoping this will help me get back on track and back to losing weight. I still have about 90 lbs I want to lose so I have a long way to go..

With that I have a LOT of fears.. A LOT.. yes fears of losing weight.. Of who I will be.. If I will be liked.. I wont have my fat to hide behind anymore and that my friends scares the hell out of me.. I am scared of the extra skin that has already started.. Scared of surgery or not being able to get surgery.. Scared that my husband will not be able to do the things I want to do with my new body because of him being over weight and resenting him for holding me back.. I have sooo many fears.. Those fears cause me to eat and they hold me back so much.. I am trying to learn more about what they are so that I can break this cycle.. I am taking this journey one step at a time for the rest of my life.. I am excited to do this dietbet and so thankful for it being an option!

Good luck everyone! We are all in this together!! Feel free to follow me on Facebook as well https://www.facebook.com/pathtolosing160lbs

Trisha

Francy M.

09/28/2014 7:33PM

Thanks for sharing Trisha! At one point or another I have felt exactly like you, I can def relate! BTW i lost my first 100 lbs with weight watchers :) I think u have some pretty great goals and I 100% Get THem!!! Lets make them more specific...so for example ur first goal is fitness right? So how can we test ur "fit" level in a month when the bet is over? Lets come up with a way to measure that! Maybe if you can walk 2 miles without stopping can we aim for a 5k? etc etc.. Does that make sense?? Wishing you all the luck and courage in the world! This journey takes a lot of strength and patience. We are here for u! xo

Trish

hmmm.. ok lets see fitness wise I want to get back with working out. I am good with walks I do them all the time 5k 10k whatever no biggie but I want to work out so I found a groupon for 4 weeks of bootcamp for get this only $19 lol I know right.. so im starting that wednesday (first day I can go) I want to go 3x a week this will take a lot of sacrifice on my part so next week I am going wed and thurs for sure then i hope the following week to do 3x and 3x on. It has been a long time since I have committed to a workout routine so I guess that would be my fitness goal for this month.

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