So today is Day 1.  Although I am definitely excited, I am also nervous.  I want this to have an impact on lilfe for me.  I have lost this weight in the past and if I lose the 10% I will be very close to where I was when I lost it before.  I will also be close to where I want to be (within about 10-15 pounds).  I want to be healthy again.  I want to feel good about myself again.  I want my weight to not be something that I personally focus on or struggle with.  I want it to be something that is not an issue, even if it is something I have to continue to work at. 

As I have said before this is more than just weight for me.  I want to make a transformation.  I want to be able to trust God and be able to be still and wait on Him.  This is something I have continued to struggle with yet I believe that these two things are connected.  They are both about control and wanting to be in control of my life regardless of the types of decisions I may make.

Be still and know that I am God.