I have mentioned in previous blogs about taking care of my nephew, I am his full time nanny. For the past 6 months it has been just my sister and I doing the daily ins and outs. Today my sisters husband returns from deployment and I am stressed out.
I am that person. You know, the one that is the single person in the room full of couples and kids. Since this has been a constant for most of my adult life I can deal with it too a point. Well I should say I try to make the best of it because it sucks having no friends so you might as well hang with the married ones because that is all you have.
With my brother-in-laws return I feel like I will be in the way. They barely got to spend time together as a new family of 3 before he had to leave. Plus as our relationship goes we tolerate each other. I am so concerned that I will end up being stuck in my room alone most of the time now that he is back. Also my sis and I had a good system so now I am not sure what is going to happen with that.
I know I should be excited that I will get more free time in Hawaii. But alot of things that I want to do are things I shouldn't do solo. Lets face it I am a cluts, knowing my luck I would go on a hike and roll down a hill somewhere and never be heard from again. HaHaha!!
Main bonus is I will actually get my weekends off and I will have my evenings to work out. I seriously miss my workout/hiking friends. Trying not to feel regret for the decision I made to stay here the whole time they are stationed here.
Think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts!!!(this is my chant for the day or months to come)
Trying to keep it moving positively.