I am sitting here thinking about losing weight AGAIN!!! Two years ago I worked hard and lost 40 pounds in about 4 months.  I did it the healthy way, through eating healthy and exercise.  I can't tell you how good I felt, both physically and mentally.  Then,  a guy showed interest in me.  I haven't been dating for over ten years now since a bad break up (I know, pretty pathetic to have it impact me in such a profound way).  After my break up, I gained 80 pounds, sadly purposefully. It kept me safe from being hurt again.  So when a guy showed interest, I went back to my safe place AND my unhappy place, AND a very lonely place.  I want to lose the weight.  I want to feel good again.  I have made one New Year's resolution for 2015 and is not to lose weight rather it is to stop living in fear.  I have compromised my health, closed myself of to love and new relationships, and wasted ten years of my life.  For 2015, I choose to live boldly, trusting that God will lead the way.  My fear is that my fear is bigger than my ability to overcome and live courageously. My hope is being a part of a group like this, I will get the encouragement I need when my fear tries to overcome my conviction.  Best of luck to all and if you ever need extra encouragement, I will always be willing to push you over the hill.  Cathi