Wow i'm nervous. It's the start of my days off at work and I couldn't even sleep in. I failed my last diet bet in January, then the entire month of February was a crash and burn. Full of birthdays, family functions, parties and a lot of unhealthy eating and drinking. I caught a bad cold at the end of the month which just wore me right down to nothing. I am tired, and still trying to kick the mucousy part of my cold (gross I know).
Did I mention i'm also nervous? Well that's because I visited my gym last week and signed up with a personal trainer, and I go see her for my fitness test and questionnaire today at 11 am. Holy cow. I haven't weighed in since my last dietbet so I'm a little worried, but I'm not going to let the number discourage me. If anything it will encourage me because i'm a little excited to work my butt off.
Lol that just made me think of the dream I had last night. I was dreaming about the gym (of course) and my first session with the personal trainer was all about the glutes. Ha! In my dream she told me that if you're a bigger person it's best to get strength in the glute muscles before beginning an intense routine. So funny.
Back on topic. I've never had a personal trainer before but always always considered it. I quit whatever diet I was trying to follow when I wasn't partying or eating pizzas, mainly because I wanted today to be a fresh start. Right from the moment I got up and out of bed. I've already filled my water bottle, had a cup of coffee with milk and a bit of raw sugar (instead of the Bailey's I've had all month). In about half an hour I'm going to make some oatmeal, drink some water, blow my nose, use my inhaler, then sort out my gym clothes and get ready to go. Lol.
You know how people say that telling all of your friends what you're doing helps you stay accountable? I work the opposite way. When I tell my friends or post blogs like this on Facebook, I actually give up quicker. I think i'm a big fan of just doing what I need to do on my own and giving people little tidbits of info once they start noticing changes. Years ago when I lost weight the first time I didn't tell anyone anything ha! I worked hard and did it for myself and me only. It's bass ackwards, I need to let my emotions out to people I don't know personally....and hide what i'm doing from people I know. Another reason for this could be how my friends might ask "hows your diet/gym going?". I don't like to answer those questions, and I feel like there would be a constant pressure to make a big change if all of them know and are asking me all the time. I'm an emotional eater and that is enough to make me crack.
This is the best place for me to post because we are all doing this together and have an understanding. I really look forward to my first session today, doing my fitness test and finding out where i'm beginning. I'm going to keep posting throughout this journey because it's a big one for me. I'm also thinking of joining Jillian Michael's dietbet that starts on the 10th. It'll be good to give myself a week to adjust to my new lifestyle!