Well I've gained 2 pounds. Hoping it's just water weight from Mother Nature, but it's more likely the mindless eating during a stressful telephone call. In a way, I hope it's the latter as I need to become more aware of my sand traps and how to better avoid them all together.
I would think that it would be easy to recognize that I'm eating while on the phone but sometimes, the mindless stuffing of my face is so automatice that it doesn't register that I'm doing it unitl I see the empty packages, plates, bowls, cups, etc. when I snap back into reality and feel like a completely disgusting mess of miserable. To top it off, I remember how this use to feel and the food becoming such a mind numbing drug for me, that I craved it.
I don't want to stuff my feelings in to me anymore. I don't want to stand in the sand trap and continue the repetitive swing of my arm to mouth and gorging on whatever I have at hand (literally and figuratively.) I don't want to hurt anymore, and I don't want to hurt me anymore by shovelling the stuff in.
I'm stepping out of the sand trap and when I'm on the phone, I'm stepping out of the kitchen. Maybe I can train myself to do squats or walk around the living room in a circle, or something more productive. If it's nice outside, I can just go there with a glass of water in my hand to prevent the stray from reaching for comfort food on my way out of the kitchen.
I can do this. I am more aware. I will not eat my feelings any longer.