5 years ago I weighed in at over 400 lbs. I was determined to lose the weight but little did I know it was the wrong way. I purged daily and shoved my finger so far down my throat so many times a day that I realized that instead of what I had eaten coming back up it was the lining of my esophagus. I did not know me and little did I know it would lead to health problems that I was not ready to face. Although I lost about 100 lbs I gained them back as soon as I didn’t run to the bathroom, turn the water on, and puke my guts out anymore. I will face health issues because of this decision for the rest of my life.
About a month ago I found this excellent site called Gwynnie Bee (yes, if you click the link I get an upgrade for a month and you get a month free) Totally worth it so please go check it out. Let me tell you a little about me, I NEVER have felt comfortable in a dress I think my husband has seen me before last month in two dresses and both of them were on my wedding day. I always felt awkward and weird and could not face the day showing my legs, arms, or any portion of my body. Gwynnie Bee has been my friend and while on this journey I have met some wonderful people who have pushed me to succeed without even knowing it.
July 22, 2014 is the day that my life changed forever though and without Gwynnie Bee or without knowing me today I do not think I would have taken it very well. I found out that I suffer from PCOS. Look it up you will learn some interesting things and I am a diabetic. Together these are not good things so immediately after I was diagnosed I ran to the bathroom and then I thought to myself that This Demon has to stop I have to do this the right way, with the right tools, and by making decisions that will change me for good and not just temporary.
The trouble is I have never been an over-eater I just eat odd things that probably are extremely bad for me (they are but I like the word Probably) I would start my day with a Kickstart, a chocolate croissant, and would then have something unhealthy like a steak and cheese with French Fries and Extra Mayo. (you know where that it falls off the sub) well recently I started putting this stuff in My Fitness Pal. AngelCarter0522 if you wanna add me and I was alarmed at the amount of Fat in these items. (Come on when you aren’t thinking about it you don’t know it and you are not Defeating the Demons.
Today, I weighed in 7.6 lbs less then I originally weighed on July 22, 2014. I have had Zero Sodas (except diet), no Almond Joy Candy Bars, no Juice (this hurts my soul but is bad for the diabetes) and although I have had one piece of my mom’s german chocolate cake I have learned that if I am good and do right that you are able to treat yourself and pat myself on the back to say that you can do something you want to do if you meet the right people.
So as I go on this journey with the girls of GB I promise to do it right, I promise to defeat my demons and I promise that I will walk tall in the end stating I am healthier, happier, and I love me.