Well here I sit, thinking about motivation and want to talk about an "Aha" moment I had over the weekend.
I was sitting, "watching" a movie with my son. Yeah not really paying attention, just a body on the couch. He had put "run fat boy, run" on because it is a funny movie. I didnt really see any humor in it but that is me. Anyway, basically here is a guy who decides to change his life to get his true love back. In making the change he decides to run a marathon. (because the current boyfriend is doing it) as the movie ends I start to watch it. I see a guy, who really is the underdog, train for a marathon in three weeks despite all the negative comments and actions thrown at him. He is given hurdles to get to the start line and an even harder situation to get through during the race. He completes the race, even though he has injuries and hits that wall where his body says he cant do it, his mind and spirit take over and says he can do it. He just needs to get through the wall. The imagery that the producer uses for the wall and the phsycial breaking of it really made the difference in the whole effect. He ends up completing the race hours later in the dark with a group of friends and strangers to cheer him on. Yes it was a powerful end to his struggle. At this point I think that is when I "woke" up. I wasn't really thinking about anything during this time but I realized that I had hit a "wall" of sorts with my journey.
So with that light having turned on, I began to wonder why I am letting myself get stopped by this "wall". I realized it is time to break it down. Now I have said that I am not a runner, I would like to be but I have reasons not too. I weigh too much, my knees and ankles and hips really can't take the pounding. The joint issue maybe true but if I take care of myself I can do this. I realized that I just need to change my mindset from "I can't right now" to " I can try right now". I just need to put one foot in front of the other. I do need to get shoes again. I will go to my local "running room" store and do this. I will get something that will support my feet for walking but can take on the pounding and protect my joints for bursts of running/jogging. I may not be marathon ready in three weeks, not that is practical anyway (I know this) but I could be 5 k ready by fall and with continued training I will be 10 k ready by spring!!
So the moral of this post is remember, plan and you will succeed. Find your motivation where you can, even if it is a goofy movie that really didn't make much sense!! Sometimes you just have to be quiet and let the message hit you in the head when you aren't looking.
Maybe this post should have been entitled "run fat girl, run" or in my case "walk fat girl, walk"
I can be a runner!!