Some say that step 1 is always the hardest.  When you're reached that moment of "okay, time to make some changes, today will be that day."  In my experience, however, it's usually the days to come that are the hardest.

For so many times when I've tried to get healthier before it was never for myself.  It was always for someone else.  Now that I see how my health is being impacted during daily basic activities, I know it's time for a change.  What better way than to start here?

I don't really have a plan in place for how I want to proceed suceeding my goal.  I think what I want to do is just start by making better choices each morning.  The days I remember to bring my giant tumbler of water just go better - I make better choices throughout the day.  My biggest challenge is meal prep.  I need to make a plan for the week ahead and just stick to it.

Exercise will come later.  I need to start small if I want to make a lasting change.  I will make a more conscious effort into getting up and moving more.  Then I can add in more specific exercise goals.  Right now it's centered around playing with my kids.  The more I get up and join in on what they're doing, the better we will be overall.  I need to learn to push past the pain in my back/knees/etc. (while listening to my heart and lungs) and just enjoying the time we spend together playing.

I have always thought that being thinner would make me happier.  I don't think that's actually the case.  I have no desire to be thin.  Okay, that's not entirely true, but I have never been able to visualize myself thin.  I have always been heavy.  I just want to be less heavy.  After 2 children and lots of poor choices after the pregnancies (I actually lost weight during both pregnancies because I ate better - go figure) I have realized that I need to make a change.  Today will be that start for me.

Today I choose me.  I choose happiness.  I choose healthiness.  So bring it on!