So i'm not here "get skinny" have a thigh gap, or anything like that. In fact, my goals are nothing like that. I am here for the sole purpose to get healthy. I have struggled with my weight my entire life. When I was younger I played soccer religiously. It was my favorite past time. But as I got older, and got a job, I suddenly found more interest in making money, than I did in soccer, I mean, can you blame me?? I also live in Florida so the heat is unbearable most of the time. My major weight gain started in highschool. I was never comfortable with my weight, but it wasn't until my junior year of highschool when I realized what I had gotten myself into.
In my sophomore year of college, I weighed about 150 pounds. Obviously, that was overweight for someone my age, but I wasn't on the verge of diabetes, or major heart issues like I am now, so I didn't really care. At the time I had a guy best friend who I was madly in love with. We had been best friends for years and he really meant the world to me. Unfortunately he found a girlfriend who he ended up falling in love with, and she told him that it was me or her, and of course, being a teenage boy, he chose her. I was heartbroken. I found myself turning to food for comfort, and that summer, I never really left my house much, unless I was hanging out with Sam (who has a profile on here btw and she's the shit, so you should follow her).
My summer going into junior year, i had gained 30 pounds in a matter of 3 months. I was disgusted. I had to buy a new school skirt 2 days before school, and at this point I didn't even want to go back, people would be able to tell i gained weight. I noticed i didn't have as many friends junior year (which doesn't bother me now because I have everyone I need, but you know in highschool you need to feel accepted), and it just wasn't a good time for me. Although i was sickened by my weight gain, I didn't stop eating. I ate whatever i could get my hands on.
Last year in february, I weighed 205 pounds. I managed to gain motivation and was able to lose 25 pounds in just under 3 months. At my lowest (from losing weight) i was 180.6 pounds! I was so happy with myself and i went from a size 16 to a size 12. I had never felt so good about myself. But that summer, I went to ireland to visit my family, and it all went downhill from there. I managed to gain ALL of the weight back! Again, I was disgusted with myself. So here I am today, 21 years old. I currently weigh 206 pounds, and i REFUSE to live my life this unhealthy. I have a supportive family, bestfriend, and boyfriend and I will do anything to make sure they get as much of me as they possibly can. I will not let my health take me away from my loved ones early. So here's to my new life, my mom's new daughter, Sam's new bestfriend, and my boyfriends new sexy girlfriend!
If you guys are feeling any negativity, need anyone to talk to, or need any motivation at all, I am always available to talk. Send me a mesage (if you can i still don't really know how this works yet), add me on facebook, or whatever you need to do. I love helping people whenever I can and I want you all to know, that we are all in this together!